Sorry That I Rambled

I don't know. Maybe I've kept too many things bottled up for these past few weeks. 
This is a hard path, it really is, and I acknowledge that. I don't know how other people survive this, but I've tried so hard to make sure that I TRY my best to make the most of it. And I've been improving, rather a lot than the last time. But when I think I've had given my all, the reality hits me hard, on the face. 

Bersedia dari awal. Burnt the midnight oil if I had to. Made sure to go through everything before the class/tutorial/practical starts. Prepare myself because I know nak setaraf dengan kawan2 yang lagi pandai ni, it takes hard work. Ilmu tak datang golek-golek macam tu je, that one I know. But the thing is, kau rasa kau dah bersedia, and when the real time comes, rupanya ada sejuta lagi benda yang kau tak tahu. That's a part of learning process, again, that one, I know. Tapi when it comes to feeling inferior, and insecurity, I guess we just can't help it, eh?

Bukannya jealous dengan orang yang lagi pandai, tapi disappointed dengan diri sendiri sebab... tak tau sebab apa. Sebab ilmu tak cukup tinggi macam orang lain maybe? And why are we comparing ourselves with other people, is another question I couldn't answer. It hurts so much harder when you're mad with yourself. Disappointed with your own self. When you're feeling overwhelmed, and incompetent, and like you don't belong. When you think that you've work hard enough but apparently your enough is not enough enough.

I know, I should not focus on the bad things but need to see on great things I've accomplished so far. To feel tired, to complain is definitely not an option. But little did I know being positive is quite a hard work itself. To tell myself that everything's gonna be okay is rather a hard work itself. And to live up to people's expectations is a hard work itself.

May Allah give me strength, give us strength.
I'm sorry that there's too much negativity in this post. I just need to let it all out. Night. (I'm fine.)

Grow Up?

Let's not fuss over small things, shall we? Whenever you're feeling blue, remember that you have thousands more reasons to be happy.

You're after all, twenty two. :')

nowplaying GLEE - What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger)

Starry Night

now playing Jonas Brothers - Lovebug

I love stargazing.

Saya suka tengok bintang.

Alhamdulillah malam ni langit cantik sangat subhanallah! With an almost full moon, bintang berterabur, like literally sprinkling, and ombre-colored sky. Words can't describe how beautiful it was, neither a powerful camera lens. Eventually I made all my five housemates out to see the sky and  I made they glad that they came out to our backyard, they really did. ;)

 

The pictures don't do justice to the real view, seriously. These are they best shot we can make via a digital camera. All shaky and blurry LOL. We used Nisa's camera as shot trials with smartphones were to no avail. Amateurs allllll the way. Haha.

The best product of my humble Samsung smartphone.

At time like this, I wish I have a DSLR and know how to use it right to get the most beautiful shot. Like this 

Mind the crosses, focus on the sky.

I actually have seen a scene like this before, seeing sea of stars WITH MY NAKED EYES and spare me, the view is far far far more a-freaking-mazing than this screenshot. Wallahi. I was in a car at The Burren back then, it was pitch black and we even stopped the car just to stargaze for a moment. I really felt like crying that time because it was too beautiful. I couldn't stop praising God for giving me such great great experience. Subhanallah.

Ever since then, stargazing has became my favorite. Only then I knew that The Burren is one of the darkest area in Ireland so it is a famous place for stargazing and people go there every year for stargazing festivals and stuff.

Stargazing has always always always been in my wishlist. A proper stargazing. Lying on the ground, cuddling if possible (muehehe). Falling asleep while counting stars. Allah, it will be blissful.Someday, insyaAllah. :)

#PrayForMH370

March 8 2014, morning. You know, one thing that is good about Twitter is it tells you what actually is happening in your "tweeps neighborhood". So when suddenly I received a notification saying everybody I know on twitter is talking about one same particular matter, I knew at once, something bad, worse, a tragic incident is happening. The same case occurred masa I dapat berita pasal arwah hari tu. Sebab tiba-tiba semua orang RT tweet Safwan (kalau tak silap) bagitau pasal berita pemergian arwah Azem. That's why, yesterday morning I was somehow, traumatized.

Turned out, a Malaysian Airlines' flight MH370 was reported missing, tak dapat dikesan, langsung. And what breaks my heart is the pictures of family members who're patiently waiting for the news, you know deep down inside they're chanting prayers non stop. It is tough enough to hold back tears, because you know once you're bursting out, you could never stop crying. And what is more heartbreaking rather than seeing a mother crying, a daughter crying, a brother crying, a husband crying, waiting for their loved ones, hoping for their loved ones to be back home, safe and soundly?

I think the hardest part is "not knowing" ; ditinggalkan dalam tanda tanya. Apa yang terjadi? Hidupkah? Matikah? Di daratkah? Di lautkah? Makan kah? Cukup minum kah? Kesejukan kah?

A few days ago I went to a talk from Brother Nouman Ali Khan in Manchester. Satu point yang terkesan dalam hati ialah "Anything, everything, is possible with Allah's will. Against all odds, everything could happen." This kind of incident could be happening to any flight, any airlines, anybody, any time. It could be happening to somebody's father today. It also can be happening to yours any time. Wallahu'alam. Indeed He is the most powerful. Indeed He knows what we don't know. Indeed we can always plan but He is always always always the best planner.

Suddenly it hits me, what if it happens to me? What if something bad happens to me before I have the chance to tell my loved ones how much I love them, how much they meant the world to me? I always know that I didn't say "I LOVE YOU" enough to anybody, be it my family members, or my special friends. I always say to myself "Taknak lah cakap, malu." or "They'll know eventhough I don't say it, I showed enough sign." or "I'll just say it tomorrow. They surely can wait.". Yes. SURELY. As if I am sure that there will be tomorrow, or I'm still alive tomorrow. It hits me. I don't cherish people. I don't cherish the moment. I, Hanis Hafizah, take things for granted. It hits me. Hard. Astaghfirullah!

Enough with the rant. Let's just pray for the crews and passengers' safety for now. InsyaAllah tembakan doa diberikan oleh seluruh rakyat Malaysia walau di mana kami berada. Majlis-majlis solat hajat di seluruh negara. Everybody is now uniting, tak kira bangsa, agama, negara, atau fahaman politik.

To everybody on the aircraft, we're here patiently waiting for you guys. Where ever you are, please be safe, have your jacket on, don't stay in cold, please do eat, you have to keep energized, please keep have faith, and don't lose hope. We here will keep praying insyaAllah and hoping for a miracle, because anything could happen against all odds. Please, come back and give your loved ones a warm hug.

And to those who are desperately trying to be popular, making countless of shameless speculations and fake news, making bad jokes and being insensitive regarding this matter, SHAME ON YOU.


live streaming Astro Awani here

Back on my flight from Dublin to Germany during winter break

Resepi Cheesy Baked Fish Pasta

now playing Inteam ft Munif Ahmad - Nur Kasih

Wahhh lagu. Nasyid sikit, kasi bersih sikit hati asyik dengar lagu lagha je hehe.

Disebabkan mengantuk dan tak nak tidur lepas Asar maka aku (pakai Aku kali ni ye) decide nak update resepi dish yang baru masak tadi. Sambil blog sambil minum hot green tea; konon-konon nak counter balik rasa bersalah makan makanan berlemak tadi so minum green tea sikit kasi detox gittew. 

Asal-asalnya nak buat 'Penne Chicken' iaitu makanan paling famous di restoran halal paling famous dalam kalangan Malaysian di Galway iaitu The High Cafe. Amboi banyaknya iaitu dia. 'Penne Chicken' ni basically pasta with cream sauce, dalam tu ada chicken breast and spinach, atas tabur grated cheese then bakar. Aku tak pernah order pun menu ni tapi raaaaaamai sangat suka. Aku rasa sikit, sedap lah jugak tapi creamy sangat cheq tak gemar sangat creamy-creamy ni. Hmmm aku ni bagi asam pedas je diamlah. Hari tu Salihah ada masak 'Penne Chicken' dekat Highfield, nampak macam senang je so apa kata kita try, detik hatiku.

Penne Chicken gambar ihsan Google

Kebetulan ada beli fresh cream hari tu, stok penne pun banyak dekat rumah ni. Oh bagi yang tak tahu, penne adalah sejenis pasta. Nak tengok rupa dipersilakan Google terima kasih. Boleh je nak guna pasta apa-apa sebenarnya. Macaroni, spiral, suka hati. Jangan guna spaghetti atau angel hair pulak, pelik bebenor rupanya tapi kalau nak buat pun mak jemah tak marah. :) Jangan confuse spaghetti dengan pasta tau. Spaghetti adalah pasta tapi pasta tak semestinya spaghetti. Faham ke? Faham-faham je lah. Takkan nak buat lecture pasal pasta pulak heheh.

Alamak chicken breast tak ada pulak. Tengok ada sea bass fish fillet dalam freezer. Kita bantai sahajork. Daripada 'Penne Chicken' jadi 'Baked Fish Pasta' pula. Sama aje, konsep dia ialah gantikan dada ayam dengan filet ikan siakap (itu sahaja ikan yang murah sikit dekat Galway ni, beli yang frozen je pun).

Jadi tanpa membuang masa, 

sukatan untuk 10 orang (saiz perut perempuan) makan :

Bahan-bahan:

500 g pasta

500 ml fresh cream

200 ml fresh milk

4 keping fish fillets

Butter

1 biji Bawang besar

4 ulas Bawang putih

*Beberapa batang celery sticks

*1 batang carrot besar

*Button mushrooms

*Cili api

Ground black pepper

Garam

Grated cheese

Cara-cara:

1. Rebus pasta, ikut instruction dekat packaging tu. Kalau aku biasanya masak air sampai mendidih, masukkan garam dalam sesudu kecik, masukkan pasta, lepas tu masukkan butter dalam sesudu besar. Tunggu la dalam 10-12 minit, kacau-kacau sikit kadang-kadang takut dia melekat dekat periuk. Agak-agak dah masak tu, angkat dan tos.

2. Disebabkan aku suka multitasking, sementara nak tunggu pasta tu masak, lumur fish fillet dengan garam dan sedikit ground black pepper, bakar dalam suhu 180 darjah Celcius sampai agak-agak masak. Aku punya makan 20 minit la jugak. Takpe dia duduk diam-diam je dalam oven tu, so kita boleh buat benda lain. Jangan sampai terlupa pulak, nanti dapat ikan berperisa arang. Kalau nak goreng ikan pun boleh juga, suka hati lah.

3. Sementara tu boleh multitasking lagi. Kita buat sos krim dia pulak. Guna periuk yang besar sikit, nanti senang kita nak campur pasta dia dalam tu. Takpe nanti mak jemah cerita. Dalam periuk cairkan dua sudu buter, then tumis bawang besar dan bawang putih yang telah dicincang. 

4. Bila dah layu bawangnya, masukkan dua sudu besar tepung gandum. Ini optional. Aku tak tau apa rasional dia tapi orang lain buat macam tu so kita ikut sahajork. Kalau tak letak tepung pun okay je rasanya. Kacau kacau kacau sampai tepung tu masak, jaga-jaga sikit nanti dia lekat kat periuk dan hangit, disaster. 

5. Masukkan pula fresh cream. Dia memang berketul mula-mula tapi kacau je buat relax je nanti dia okay insyaAllah. Kemudian masukkan fresh milk, kasi dia cair sikit, tak adalah masa makan tu rasa berlemak sangat macam nak kena sakit jantung hehe.

6. Masukkan sayur-sayur (yang bertanda *). Sebenarnya sayur apa-apa pun boleh. Apa-apa yang ada dalam peti ais tu campak sahaja. Brokoli, bayam, boleh. Kailan ke bak choy ke tak sure pulak, macam pelik je. Cili api tu optional, tapi disebabkan hidupku tak bermakna tanpamu di sisiku duhai cili api maka aku letaklah bagi kick sikit. Lidah Melayu kata ko. :D

7. Perasakan dengan garam dan ground black pepper. Kacau-kacau lah kuah tu sampai masak.

8. Last sekali, masukkan segenggam grated cheese, atau cheese yang orang tabur atas pizza tu. Bukan philadelphia, itu orang buat cheese cake. -.- Grated cheese ni bagi effect pasta kau bertali-tali gittew. Ahhh rindu Pizza Hut! Kacau-kacau lagi agak-agak cheese tu dah larut, matikan api (kalau dapur kau dapur gas lah, mat saleh punya dapur electric u'olls).

9. At this stage boleh masukkan pasta yang dah direbus tadi. Alamak tak muat periuk? Periuk kecik sangat? Jangan risau beb. Benda boleh setel. Campur je pasta dan kuah tadi dalam mana-manalah bekas yang muat. Hehe. Kacau-kacau sehingga sebati dan setiap individu pasta diselaputi sos. Gittew. Ingat lagi tak ikan panggang tadi? Potong ikan dalam bite size, gaulkan sekali dengan pasta dan sos. Aku cadangkan masuk ikan last sekali sebab ikan ni mudah hancur. Tuang semua 'adunan' ke dalam loyang atau baking dish, tabur balance grated cheese tadi. Letaklah banyak mana pun, waima nak buat gunung cheese pun dipersilakan. Takde hal bro.

10. Bakar dalam oven suhu 180 darjah Celcius, lebih kurang 5-10 minit, atau sampai cheese atas tu cair dan garing. Boleh lah diangkat dan dihidang, jangan lupa telan air liur. Mehehe.

Senang aje kan? Yang tak reti masak pun insyaAllah boleh masak dengan jayanya. Resepi ni aku bantai-bantai, campak-campak, agak-agak je. Modify sini sikit sana sikit. Kita guna je apa yang ada kat rumah. Aku memang pakar bab ganti-ganti barang ni. Kalau takde butter boleh ganti dengan vegetable oil. Kalau taknak ikan, nak guna chicken breast tadi, masukkan chuncks of chicken breast (tak bakar dulu pun tak apa) lepas step 5. Kalau nak tau, aku buat carbonara pun macam ni jugak caranya, sebijik. Makanan mat saleh ni ulang-ulang benda yang sama je sebenarnya hehe.

Maaflah rupa tak semenggah mana. Dah habis separuh housemates makan baru sempat tangkap gambar. Kesian anak-anakku kelaparan semuanya. Hehe.

Selamat mencuba. Kalau dah cuba bagi tahu cheq. Nak bagi rasa pun dialu-alukan. Hewhew. Adios!

now playing Mecca2Medina ft Raihan - Do You Know Him

Di Hamparan Shamrock Kuseru Nama-Mu

Bacaan kini (direct translation of current reading?). Been longing to read a Bahasa Melayu book for a long time now. Rindu Malaysia sebenarnya. At least bila baca buku bahasa rasalah macam dekat Malaysia sekejap.

Salah sendiri jugak. Ingatkan cili kering dan serunding paling penting, sampai lebih limit check in luggage 30 kilogram. Padahal buku pun penting jugak. Sempat seludup satu je novel Ramlee Awang Murshid masuk handbag.

Pinjam buku ni daripada Ikang. Dah lama nak baca tapi tak berkesempatan. Rugilah bila boleh visualkan apa yang Ustaz Hasrizal cerita pasal Galway dalam buku ni, tapi tak nak grab peluang tu. (Ketuk kepala sendiri).

Fenomena normal di Galway; hujan. Lawak yang semakin hambar ialah

"It rains only twice a week in Galway. One lasts for three days and the second one lasts for four days."

Oh pointnya kat sini nak cakap sedapnya boleh lepak-lepak 'planking' atas katil hujan-hujan macam ni, baca buku sambil minum teh panas. Alhamdulillah hari ni pun tak ada class. Jadi marilah kita menggunakan nikmat ini dengan sebaiknya. :)

Salam Maulidurrasul.

P/s: Kalau ada pintu suka hati boleh lah pergi kedai buku favorite Popular Bookstore dekat Ikano. Eh kalau ada pintu suka hati senanglah boleh balik Mesia bila-bila masa. Sobs.

OLJ Part 1 : Dublin - Munich - Salzburg

OLJ (Our Little Jaulah) is actually a series of travel note I jotted down in my little pink travel book during our winter trip to Austria and Germany, transferred into blog posts form.

Day 1  (Actually rambled on 18 December 2013)

now playing : Opick - Dealova

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

What can i say? It was quite a day today. Now it is exactly 08:45pm and everybody already drifted into the dreamland. Except for me. Oh actually I had a (power) nap before so that I can stay awake to plan the Salzburg trip for these few days coming.

My so called trip planning on the bed *wink*. Each bed has personal lamp, it comes very handy in a shared room so you don't have to kacau orang lain tido with a bright room light.

 Oh, silly me. Aneh Apijah, introduction mana? Tak bagi salam terus masuk rumah orang tumpang toilet. *metafora tetibe*

As the title suggests, this is our little jaulah. (bagi nama jaulah la, islamic sikit ecchehh).

As early as it an gets, our day starts at 01:15am when we took a cab to the New Galway Coach Station, hopped onto a shuttle bus to the Dublin International Airport, meet up with Afiqah from Cork, checked in, bumped into the Galway boys (Hazel boys and the gang) who turned out having a same flight with us four (Nisa, Nadiah, Afiqah, and I) to Munich, Germany; yada yada, early spicy pasta breakfast yada yada off we got onto the plane. It was around 07:15am when the flight took off. So we pretty much didn't really sleep that night (or morning?).

I think I did a pretty well job on packing my cabin (and only) luggage. Kali ni dah tak payah minta tolong Ayah via Skype dah. Imma grown up now! :P

Pengalaman solat Subuh and watching sunrise afterwards. Subhanallah. :')

Good morning Munich. Alhamdulillah selalu dapat seat tepi tingkap. Boleh berangan lari-lari atas Negara Awan selalu. Doraemon sangat. ;)

And of course, adventure usually starts as soon as possible. Eewah, adventure ke? But seriously, macam-macam dugaan datang. Nasib baik kami chillax aje hehe. I will tell more by the end of this entry okayss lovelies? =)

We arrived a Munich Airport around twenty to eleven then immediately bought Germay Railway Passes which cost us each 196 Euros and the pass can be used "unlimited-ly" for six days in one month. Valid in all over Germany and neighboring countries, as for our case, Salzburg, Austria.....which marks our first vacation-adventure location ehehs.

Waiting for our Munich-Salzburg train and I'm holding my phone (gotta appreciate the free airport wifi while it is still available!).

Loving our coach. Very Harry-Potter-Hogwarts-Express-like.

By 04:30pm dan dan masuk Maghrib we safely arrived at the hostel and checked in, then we prepared to solat, bersihkan diri and all, terus terbongkang semua. Haha. Penat semuanya. Makan pun tak proper, we relied on bananas and breads and chocolates to alas perut, and oh, spicy pasta untuk early breakfast tadi pun ada lagi, survive sampai the next day nampak gayanya insyaAllah. :)

A few highlights of the day:

1) There were two boys in the flight, the pissed everybody off, like literally every person in the plane, from the stewards to the other passengers. It was a total discomfort-ness throughout the journey; they were so loud, like they were high or drunk or something, even little children behaved better. *sigh*

Those boys were too noisy we couldn't sleep we posed for the camera instead. Heheh.

2) Our first experience on the regional train was kinda shitty. Haha. Nobody spoke English to top it off; so we ended up confused and depressed, as all the announcements were not in English, we don't know whether it was our station next or whatsoever and we cannot ask people around. There were a few kind people however, who tried their best to use their minimum knowledge in the language, which did help us a lot, but there were also quite a number of people who doesn't even try to help - it was annoying.

Despite the hardship, we were blessed with a wonderful view Alhamdulillah. My very first time seeing snowy alps! (They should clean the window I guess.)

3) In Salzburg (or as they pronounced it "Zalzburgg" qolqolah sikit Q tu) nobody speaks English except the ones in the information center. The people were really nice though, despite the language barrier, which is something good, kan? :)

Those are actually cables for trams in Salzburg. Kinda cool, huh? :)

4) Dankee (I'm not sure with the spellings but it means "Thanks") 

Ausgang = Exit

Eingang = Entrance

Basic local store shopping knowledge hehe.

5) The nice receptionist boy named Christopher (which apparently is also the barista) accidentally gave us a key to an all boys room. We went into the room (we booked a shared female dorm in a hostel) trusting it was ours, providing it has four empty-untouched beds in the room (and there was no one inside). Our first thought was "The room smells like guys". And we found a few 'evidences' that we ummmmmm pretty sure belong to a man, and oooopps, we better wait outside. Our 'actual' room was actually two doors away. Wrong key, wrong room number. Haha! What an experience. -.-'

Zotter Trinkschokolade. If you've seen my video on Instagram, these are the choice of chocolate bar flavors available for my hot chocolate. Christopher was being very nice to patiently translate 'em all to us.

6) Afiqah woke me up from a nap, just to hear me calling her "Uswah". Hahaha. Yup. You better not seeing me when I'm mamai. Budak paling teruk mamai, yang inilah, Hanis Hafizah yang inilah. Hahaha.

7) Nisa slept after Isya' and woke up after a few hours; asked about the time. It was 08.30pm. And she asked again, "Kita nak keluar pukul berapa?". Everybody has blurred face on. Then Nisa came to her sense, "Jap, 08:30 pagi ke malam ni?!" Hahaha. Yup, 08:30 in the morning is still dark back in Galway.

8) There are LOADS of choice of mineral water in store and for such a cheap price, but of course, nobody cares to help this not so little tourist understanding what written on the bottle so I ended up buying sparkling mineral water. The only good news is, it costs only 22 cents! Woohoo! Yup you read me right. ;)

Our tired faces. Waiting for our last transport of the day to the hostel. Cool gila ada bench tempat sandar beg ni, at least you don't have to stand hurting your shoulder carrying your bag after a looooong day! Genius siapa cipta benda ni.

That's it for now. What a day right? Hahaha. Should go to sleep now. A long and great day (hopefully) awaits tomorrow. Wassalam. 

now playing Radiohead - Creep

It's Winter Break!

Now that the winter exam (or it says Christmas exam on my MCQ paper, yeahh that's the spirit baby) is over, it's time for WINTER TRIP!!!!! Say whaaaattttt....! :D

Moga selamat semuanya moga diredhai tujuannya moga dipermudahkan perjalanannya. Amin. :)

Happy holiday!

P/s: the only reason I love Christmas is because of the long holiday season. Heee ;)

Here's a picture of me sitting by a Christmas tree during my brunch with Hanis Faiqah on one fine Tuesday morning before leaving for the winter trip.   :)

Eid Mubarak From Galway!

Alhamdulillah. It's Eid again. My third raya in Galway, my second Eid Al-Adha. But didn't manage to perform solat sunat hari raya with the others this time round, because I have a morning class. Raya dalam lecture theater pon boleh. Haha T_____T 

One of the pictures is from the last night's event; Galway Bertakbir (pandai-pandai bagi nama hahah). And the other one is a (not-so) quick selfie I managed to snap after class today. I knew this Miss Selfridge' s floral dress will come in handy when I 'ran out' of baju kurung. Lol. So I just style it with a dark blue cardigan I got from Penneys, a turquoise pasmina, a Dorothy Perkin's headband for a 'princess-ey' effect (muehehe), my lovable pair of studded ankle boots and voilà, lari pergi class. Haha! Mood nak cantik-cantik masa hari raya mesti kena ada. Hiks.

Ps: Class ends at 6pm. And not a single raya food is eaten (yet) today. Bertabahlah duhai Anis Apizah!

Our Journey to Home Starts Here! :)

Writing at the departure gates, Dublin Airport. :)


Spending less than 24 hours in Dublin City, met a lot of lovely and helpful people though. But urrmmm, people here are just a little tiny mini micro bit less friendly than people I met in Galway, as maybe, because it's a bit busier here in Dublin (Galway ftw :P). But still, we feel so blessed to meet new kind of people, with new kind of kindness (four hopeless girls traveling with eight luggage sounds hectic you know *wink*) . :)

Thank you Dublin. May He eases our journey. Bismillah.

The Most Embarrassing Scene of The Day

First of all, wait. Inhale. Exhale.
Malu lagi ni bila fikir balik.



Fuhhh.
Okay.

 

Here comes the story.

So I went to Mr Price earlier today, looking for some boxes for packing my stuff to move out of the house. There was this one really nice and helpful worker named Greg whom I asked for the boxes from. He told me that they didnt have any empty box yet during that time and asked me to come again later that evening. 

So I did. I hopped into the Dunaras-NUIG bus which will drop me at the shop at 6.10 pm. The bus will make a route back (NUIG-Dunaras) and will pass the exact spot I hopped off at 6.20 pm. So I pretty much had only ten minutes to settle down the boxes thingy with Greg.

Bla bla bla. Boxes story settled. 

So I walked out of Mr Price in a rush, fearing the fact that I will miss the bus. And exactly, that was what pretty much happening. Or supposed to. But if I was destined to miss the bus this evening, I did 'change my destiny' and of course, like you seen in movies, when you change your destiny, something is needed for the pay-off. Teehee.

And this was what happened for the pay-off.

The bus stopped at the bus stand but I was too far away to catch it. So I ran. Yup. Typical Hanis Hafizah Haha, running for the bus. Forever and always. But I didnt make it. It speeds off. 

Apparently, the fate is my bestfriend. The bus stopped for the traffic light so I continued running with the crazy wind, my tudung terbang-terbang until at some point the wind blew my tudung all over my face I couldnt see at all 

and phewww! I made it into the bus.

Oh did I tell you I ran with huge boxes in my hands? Yup with all those boxes in the picture above. Yup. Imagine that. A fat chick running with huge boxes. How. Hilarious. =.='

As I hoped into the bus all panting and confusing, I was kinda blur on where to put my boxes, then another nice guy of the day came, carry all my boxes to the backseats of the bus. It was Eamonn, my classmate. He was in the bus of course, with Janisha le girlfriend and of course, they saw everything happened, every show I did. And for sure, everybody else in the bus saw what I did back then. Yup everybody except the bus driver, if he had seen me (running towards him) he should've wait for me. *cry*

So then after thanking Eamonn, I sat at the back with him and Janisha. And my boxes, of course. If you are a glasses person you know what will happen to your cold glasses once you body becomes hot (from all the running). Condensation will occur. And Eamonn, being the brotherly-annoying boy he has always been, said (with laugh of course), "Hey Haha, you have clouds on your glasses" which I replied "Yes I'm aware of it, a normal thing from all the running."

Eamonn: "Yup we saw that. Somebody said "Haha is running for the bus" and we shouted for the driver to stop the bus. And then we saw your hijab went crazy and covering your face and you were seen running without a face..hahahahahahahahaha"

Me: "Just, shut up." *embarrassing*

And he continued laughing. Until we reached Dunaras.

Being all gentleman (I dont think he did that just in front of Janisha, you know, trying hard on showing how macho you are in front of your girlfriend or something like that, teehee) Eamonn offered to carry my huge boxes down the bus.

And me, 

urmmmm I think I had not recovered from the running yet, nearly falling flat on the bus floor as I missed the bus step. I screamed a little and Janisha went like "Oh my, Haha are you alright". I knew them both were holding their laugh at my silliness, and in fact, I was holding back my laugh as well. Hahaha.

I hope all my friends in the bus at that time had a really good time laughing at me, which I dont mind at all. :) If I was happened to see me like that, I would have laughing really hard on myself too. 

It was too funny. Seeing a baby elephant running with huge boxes and the wind blows so hard the elephant's ears were flapping to its face. Now as I come to think of it, it was hilarious! Hahahaha. XD

This should be a really good thing to laugh at when I get older and wiser. LOL.

Thank You

For always be there.
During ups and downs.
During laughs and frowns.

When I was about to lose faith in myself today.
Dan air mata pun tumpah lagi tadi.

For always be there.
For always believe in me.
When I am not trusting myself anymore.

Salihah Athirah. Jasmin Syuhada. Siti Nurzulaikha.
Thank you loves.

When family is away.
Friends, will always be around.
But only true friends can read your heart.

A Walk to The University.

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum

Just a quickie.

Wanna share some pictures I captured on my way to the university today.

*Ehem. Am blogging with university's PC right now, excuse me :P*

Spring is totally awesome.

Yeah we still need to bear with the daily rains and winds *wink* but when the sun shines, 

MAGNIFICENT!

Oh did I mention I slept at Highfield Park last night?

Too much distractions in Dunaras Village. That explains. Haha.

Cherry Blossoms aka the pink tree. My obsession this season. :)

My favorite mini garden (with cherry blossoms now). :)

Highfield Park iloveyou :)

Tulips! Cry now.

The pink tree with an abandoned building. :O

My favorite route to school. The trees change color every season. Will be greener this summer I guess. They were all yellow then orange last autumn and botak all the way during winter. Haha.

Should get back to study now.

Last paper tomorrow.

Behold, the toughest of all.

Study YOSH!! *word of the semester*

I wonder why the school call this final: "Summer Exams" when we are still in spring. =.=

New Friend

Aizat came to Galway yesterday. Yup, Aizat my best friend. Finally sampai jugak ke Galway. Tapi datang mengejut. All this while geram betul dengan Aizat sebab he visited other FAR AND EXPENSIVE places like Turkey and Amsterdam tapi Galway yang tiga jam from Cork ni, tak sudi nak datang pun. Haha.

Dah la datang sekejap je. Pastu bagi short notice. Padahal orang dah cakap banyak kali before this, kalau nak datang bagitau awal2 boleh prepare nak masak ke apa ke. Heeeee semalam dah kena bebel dah dia. Haha. Kesian.

Kena lah jumpa walaupun sekejap!! Dah la tetamu, my besto pulak tu. *Eventho he wasnt coming here for me peduli apa hahaha* Perlu jumpa untuk catch up stories and blablabla.

Yada yada yada yada.

Eventually Aizat datang dengan Aisya Amira (Bit) and his friend (whom I didnt know before) Ridhwah. Okay to be honest, I was quite embarrassing to keep writing what I'm gonna write after this. But for the sake of keeping the memories *ecewahh* I'll go on. *wink*

Ridhwah. I remember this one time I asked Ami (Syaza Nur Amirah) "How's Aizat?" -they are both classmates in Cork- "Oh, Aizat dah ada best friend baru sekarang, ____________(insert name here, I forgot the name Ami mentioned)". And I was like, "Oh, yeke." *Buat muka biasa*

Tapi dalam hati, I dont know why, ada rasa sedih sikit. I taught "Aizat ada kawan baru sekarang, he'll tell her everything, and he'll do everything with her, and he'll slowly forget me and our friendship." *sila baca dalam nada pasrah*

I think I was being childish. Just pure childish. That kind of childish yang masa sekolah rendah dulu ada BFF pastu tiba2 BFF kita rapat dengan orang lain pergi kantin sama-sama and kita tak nak kawan dengan orang lain tu sebab orang lain tu rampas BFF kita. That kind of childish thing, that kind of childish feeling. Hahaha. Today I am laughing at my own very twenty year old (during that time I asked Ami) self. Pfft.

And yesterday when Aizat told me he's coming with Bit and Ridhwah (whom I didnt know before) I was thinking, "Ohh maybe she's the one yang Ami cakap tu, there I told you, they are going everywhere together now". See? I was being childish again! Haha.

Aizat: Diorang teringin nak makan Mr Waffle esok, jom?
Me: Kau teringin tak? Kalau diorang teringin, diorang pergilah.

Part of me was hoping that Aizat didnt want to go to Mr Waffle so I dont have to meet his new friend Ridhwah and we can go chilling anywhere else. Takdir Allah, in the end kena jumpa face to face dengan Ridhwah jugak. At Mr Waffle.

What can I say, she is not as what I expected. *I have this kind of attitude I am so sorry. I even feel sorry for myself. T___T* The moment my eyes laid on her, everything changed. "Hai. I'm Iwa." *dia lambai sambil senyum*

She's cute. And the most important thing is, she is very very very very nice. No wonder Aizat boleh mingle dengan Iwa. She's very warm. And humble, and baik sangat. We were getting very well towards each other.

Alright, I think I get along with people very well, eventho I just know them. I mean I can and I will try my best to fit in so that there will be no awkward moment. But the case is different with Iwa. At first I thought I will never get along with her (sekolah-rendah-BFF-kena-rampas remember? hahaha) but eventually it turned out very very very differently. 180 degree. First time jumpa boleh terus get along, betul-betul ikhlas dari hati takde main2 fake feeling ke apa.

Ya Allah, rasa berdosa sangat. Sebab ada that kind of feeling. I was being unfair to Aizat, and more important to the innocent Iwa.

Iwa, if you are reading this, Haha mintak maaf sangat. And truly, you are really a very nice person. I feel so blessed to know you today, eventho kita boleh jumpa and sembang sekejap je. Sorry for the things I've done, and for the things I said, or for the thoughts I had. I really hope to see you again next time. Please dont be mad at me, if you are reading this. I am truly sorry and i am sincerely want to be your friend. :) Do come here again, I will cook something for you insyaAllah.

So yeah, I said it. I wrote it. And I'm gonna post it. Now you see the other side of me. Yup I am being perfectly imperfect. Dont judge. Okay, judge if you want. I dont even care. The thing is, I am being honest with myself. I made a mistake and I am not afraid to admit it. I'm not afraiddd *tune in Eminem okay apehal tibe2*

Aizat tak makan sayur. Iwa pun tak makan sayur. I hereby approve if you two want to have something "more than friend" hikhikhik. Just do remember to tell me and, jaga batas, boleh pandang-pandang jangan pegang-pegang lol. If you really want it, do it the right way. :)

Assalamualaikum.

Bit, Iwa, and me. At NUI Galway main building, The Quadrangle. (I'm getting chubbier yes I am aware of that. Dont blame me, its study and exam week I am so depressed I cant stop munching, lol)

Vicky 21

Happy 21st Birthday to m'lady Fahima Femm Victoria Rosli.
I wish Cork is ten minutes away. Sobs.

Unlike last year, today I remember your birthday. Teehee.

Go on, Victoria. Keep being that one awesome friend, daughter, sister, muslimah, doctor wannabe, directioner (lol) that we all know.

You know I love you. *hugs*

Told Ya

"2 reasons why winter sucks" -source

See? Exactly what I have said. =P

1.2/2013; New Year, New Semester

#nowplaying Daylight by Maroon 5

Assalamualaikum all. :) Ya Allah. It has been FOREVER since I last posted here. For those who have been wondering (ehhh ada kah?) where on earth was HahaTomatoBlast for these past six-seven months, well right on this very second I am typing this post on my desk in my room in Dunaras Village, my hostel in Galway, Ireland. Yes, Ireland. Alhamdulillah, finally. :')  Allah made my dream comes true. :)

In fact, I have been studying here for almost four months now and today I start my second semester of the year. :) Okay truthfully, I do feel quite guilty for not updating, abandoning my blog and forgetting the little world I built here. I know I should keep on writing no matter what happened so that I can restore these memories and read it when I got older. Sounds corny, eh? ;)

So I made up my mind; I should write here, a few times in a month (at least) regardless the fact that not everybody is reading blogs anymore nowadays. I should tell my self that I write not for them to be pleased but for ME myself. :)

Mushy. Haha.

Oh yes, I did mentioned that today is my first day in 1MB7 1.2 right? Hahaha whuuuuttttisthattt 1MB7 1.2..!? In Layman's term (ecewahh) it is simply described as "First Year Medical Student, Second Semester". First day of the year masuk sekolah. Ha.Ha.Ha. After three weeks of winter break, yes only three weeks but STILL, cuti, means no class no textbook no whatnot, i think you got the feeling aite? *cough*

The day started as early as it can possibly be, Medical Professionalism (macam belajar sivik) lecture at 8am. Tell you what, naik bas pagi-pagi feels like nak naik bas balik raya kat kampung tengah malam buta. LOL Subuh starts at 6.41am and ends at 8.49am, so you got the idea on how gelap the world outside kan? Haha.

I need to stay at the uni until 5pm (mind you, Maghrib starts at 4.37pm which means I walked out of the house masa gelap and got back home bila dah gelap. Huhuu, this is winter eberybadehhh) okay sambung balik; I need to stay at the uni until 5pm as I need to attend my first SSM meeting. SSM stands for Special Study Modules in which the student got the opportunity to learn in depth on whatever medical field that he might be interested in. In my case, my SSM is Cardiovascular Medical Device. I am practically so excited, people who know me must be aware how much I love cardiology, heheee. And for start, we need to make a presentation about pacemaker this Thursday, and then we'll be going on with meeting patients. YES, real patient. OMG cuaknya cuaknyaaaa. On the very first day of school pun dah cuak habis dah ni, takde masa nak warm up warm up dah. =.=''

I think this should be enough, for now. Panjang pulak mak nenek ni membebel. See you in the next post. Till then, jangan nakal-nakal, assalamualaikum. :)

lenguh ni angkat upper limb tinggi-tinggi, hipster betul =..=

Aim for next post(s)

- winter break tour; Galway-Edinburgh-London

- what I love about Galway

- anything I feel like pointing out?

InsyaAllah

Niat dah ada, kena cuba laksanakan. :)