Anish Apijah nak jadi apa?

Masa sekolah rendah cikgu suruh tulis karangan 'Cita-cita Saya', confident je tulis "guru yang berdedikasi, ingin mendidik anak bangsa, yadayadayada". Lepas tu up sikit, tukar, nak jadi pensyarah pulak. Cikgu tanya "Hanis, awak nak jadi pensyarah apa?" Cikgu Rosliadi nama dia. Confident jugak jawab "Pensyarah ugama, cikgu!" Haha 😂😂😂.

Makin tambah umur makin bertukar-tukar cita-cita. Pernah nak jadi Engineer (dah isi pun borang nak masuk sekolah teknik), Architect (sebab tengok abang Form Five macam cool buat Lukisan Kejuruteraan), Pakar Forensik kerja dengan polis (sebab selalu sangat tengok CSI), pernah rasa nak jadi cikgu again - Guru Add Math (sebab masa tu pergi Perfect Score SBP Add Math), and pernah jugak nak jadi Chemist (sebab suka Kimia gila gila gila). 😁

Last-last lepas SPM sambung medik. 💉 Alhamdulillah, enjoy je and the experiences are magnificent. 😊 And now dah halfway through dengan Medicine, masih lagi tanya diri sendiri, betul ke nak jadi Doktor ni? Sebab sometimes rasa tak yakin dengan keupayaan diri sendiri. 

But what can we do is berusaha je sesungguh hati dan selalu jugak berdoa dengan Tuhan semoga dipermudahkan jalan yang kita dah pilih, or show us the right pathway in our future life, sebab after all, Dia je yang Maha Mengetahui segala rahsia di langit dan di bumi. 😇

Yang penting, usaha! Ada rezeki, alhamdulilah. Kalau takde, kita reroute. 😉 (tengok-tengok nanti Anish Apijah jadi Perdana Menteri ahahahahahhahaaha)

P/s : macam biasa stethoscope pinjam 😜
P/s/s : #throwback gambar masa OSCE tahun lepas, cuak gila and tak perasan pun OSCE jatuh on my birthday, sampai la the examiner doctor (my crush lol) check student card and cakap "Congratulations, you are done. Happy Birthday!" sambil senyum kasi cair satu kali. Kah! 😂

Sorry That I Rambled

I don't know. Maybe I've kept too many things bottled up for these past few weeks. 
This is a hard path, it really is, and I acknowledge that. I don't know how other people survive this, but I've tried so hard to make sure that I TRY my best to make the most of it. And I've been improving, rather a lot than the last time. But when I think I've had given my all, the reality hits me hard, on the face. 

Bersedia dari awal. Burnt the midnight oil if I had to. Made sure to go through everything before the class/tutorial/practical starts. Prepare myself because I know nak setaraf dengan kawan2 yang lagi pandai ni, it takes hard work. Ilmu tak datang golek-golek macam tu je, that one I know. But the thing is, kau rasa kau dah bersedia, and when the real time comes, rupanya ada sejuta lagi benda yang kau tak tahu. That's a part of learning process, again, that one, I know. Tapi when it comes to feeling inferior, and insecurity, I guess we just can't help it, eh?

Bukannya jealous dengan orang yang lagi pandai, tapi disappointed dengan diri sendiri sebab... tak tau sebab apa. Sebab ilmu tak cukup tinggi macam orang lain maybe? And why are we comparing ourselves with other people, is another question I couldn't answer. It hurts so much harder when you're mad with yourself. Disappointed with your own self. When you're feeling overwhelmed, and incompetent, and like you don't belong. When you think that you've work hard enough but apparently your enough is not enough enough.

I know, I should not focus on the bad things but need to see on great things I've accomplished so far. To feel tired, to complain is definitely not an option. But little did I know being positive is quite a hard work itself. To tell myself that everything's gonna be okay is rather a hard work itself. And to live up to people's expectations is a hard work itself.

May Allah give me strength, give us strength.
I'm sorry that there's too much negativity in this post. I just need to let it all out. Night. (I'm fine.)

All Those Shower Thoughts

I don't know about you, but most of my wisest (at least I thought they were wise) decisions and thoughts were made while I showered.

The one most popular topic while I showered every morning before going to class is "Outfit of The Day". Yes, I know. Truly a girl I am, blablabla. All those make up slash fashionista gurus out there that you may found in Youtube will usually suggest you plan your outfit the night before so that you don't have to rush the next morning. But it doesn't quite work with me. Okay, perhaps it works sometimes, especially when I have something REALLY big coming up, like hari raya or formal dinners sort of things, yeah, but with everyday class outfit, maybe not.

To my surprise (or maybe you are surprised too), sometimes I also thought about bigger things. Like

1. Where am I in ten years time? Will I be married and have kids, or still single?
2. Is it rational for me to have pets?
3. Will I make it to the last of my study and become a doctor one day?
4. If I didn't pick medicine, where would I be now?
5. Is it normal to gaze at the sky and be mesmerized with it, every time I looked up?
6. Why does rainbow makes people happy?
7. Why are people being so kind to me? I am not really kind anyway.
8. Do people always feel satisfaction during charity deeds, like I felt? Or it only hits certain people?
9. I love kids too much. What will happen if nauzubillah I couldn't have kids of my own?
10. Will I die young or will I live till my nineties? Will my death be sudden or because of a disease?
11. What are people thinking of me when they first saw me, and when they saw me like, for a year?
12. How does it feels like to have a brother?
13. Will I achieve my dream to travel the world?
14. Will I achieve my dream to settle down and live in a farm with my beloved ones till death do us apart, doing nothing but good deeds to people around and charity and serve the community, doing nothing but everything that makes me happy?
15. Can I sing really well?
16. How long more does it takes for me to be a good guitar player?
17. When will I finish reading all those books I bought? Or they will just end up in the library I build in my dream house?

I have so many thoughts inside me, but right now I couldn't think of a proper outro.

Zauj Dari Poland?

Che Ti : Haha, hang nak menikah dak?
Haha   : Hahh? Awat random sangat tanya soalan ni?
Che Ti : Hang ada calon dak lagi?
Haha    : Hang ni la Che Ti, bagilah aku lepaih grad dulu. Gheja dulu.

Dua jam kemudian....

Che Ti : Hang ingat lagi dak soalan aku tadi?
Haha    : Hat mana satu?
Che Ti : Hang tau dak, tadi tiba-tiba ada kawan aku bagi message kat FB tanya "kawan hang ada yang tengah cari zauj dak?" Aku rasa untuk hang ok ni. Boleh kot ni Haha.
Haha   : Errkkkk? *tak terkata*
Che Ti : Orang Poland. Polish. Muslim. Nak dak? Best ni. Mat saleh kot.
Haha    : Ambik kat hang la.
Che Ti : Tak mau la. Sat lagi mengamuk pak aku kalau aku nak menikah orang Poland.
Haha    : Abih tu hang ingat pak aku tak mengamuk?
Che Ti : Haha, hang nak zauj?
Haha    : Ya Allah Che Tiiiiiiiiii. Aku tak mau menikah lagi laaaaaaaa.

Dan Che Ti pun ketawa terbahak-bahak. Pastu bukak cerita koteow tomyam.



Aku tak paham la kenapa Che Ti ni suka suruh aku kahwin cepat-cepat. Tiap kali jumpa mesti suruh aku kahwin. Lawak la Che Ti ni. Masalahnya aku rasa macam baru semalam aku habis SPM so mana boleh nak ber-zauj-zauj lagi. Haha.

Baling Ke Belakang Sikit

Tengok pose pun dah tau ni gambar zaman Friendster. Hahahh. 2006. Tingkatan 2 SMKS18 Shah Alam. Tahun paling berjaya sebab masuk kawad kaki sampai peringkat negeri, perform masa Hari Pahlawan kat SUK dengan polis veteran, so on so forth. 

Rindu geng kawad kaki. Rindu practice hari2 berbulan-bulan tak kira siang malam, budak asrama semuanya so memang makan tidur pun berkawad lol. Hidup Ustazah Khadijah! (tetibe) 

 Punya lah passionate dengan kawad kaki sampai join Kadet Polis lepas pindah Intesaber semata-mata nak masuk kawad ;D. Tapi ni satu-satunya gambar pakai baju kawad Puteri Islam yang ada dalam simpanan sbb masa tu pakai handphone nokia baling anjing takde camera. Ni snap dengan Eton bawah khemah Hari Koko pakai handphone nokia sabun Hanisah Inani. Bestie selfie teehee.

How time flies. I miss high school! Bittersweet. :')

now playing Daughtry - Waiting For Superman

Resepi Cheesy Baked Fish Pasta

now playing Inteam ft Munif Ahmad - Nur Kasih

Wahhh lagu. Nasyid sikit, kasi bersih sikit hati asyik dengar lagu lagha je hehe.

Disebabkan mengantuk dan tak nak tidur lepas Asar maka aku (pakai Aku kali ni ye) decide nak update resepi dish yang baru masak tadi. Sambil blog sambil minum hot green tea; konon-konon nak counter balik rasa bersalah makan makanan berlemak tadi so minum green tea sikit kasi detox gittew. 

Asal-asalnya nak buat 'Penne Chicken' iaitu makanan paling famous di restoran halal paling famous dalam kalangan Malaysian di Galway iaitu The High Cafe. Amboi banyaknya iaitu dia. 'Penne Chicken' ni basically pasta with cream sauce, dalam tu ada chicken breast and spinach, atas tabur grated cheese then bakar. Aku tak pernah order pun menu ni tapi raaaaaamai sangat suka. Aku rasa sikit, sedap lah jugak tapi creamy sangat cheq tak gemar sangat creamy-creamy ni. Hmmm aku ni bagi asam pedas je diamlah. Hari tu Salihah ada masak 'Penne Chicken' dekat Highfield, nampak macam senang je so apa kata kita try, detik hatiku.

Penne Chicken gambar ihsan Google

Kebetulan ada beli fresh cream hari tu, stok penne pun banyak dekat rumah ni. Oh bagi yang tak tahu, penne adalah sejenis pasta. Nak tengok rupa dipersilakan Google terima kasih. Boleh je nak guna pasta apa-apa sebenarnya. Macaroni, spiral, suka hati. Jangan guna spaghetti atau angel hair pulak, pelik bebenor rupanya tapi kalau nak buat pun mak jemah tak marah. :) Jangan confuse spaghetti dengan pasta tau. Spaghetti adalah pasta tapi pasta tak semestinya spaghetti. Faham ke? Faham-faham je lah. Takkan nak buat lecture pasal pasta pulak heheh.

Alamak chicken breast tak ada pulak. Tengok ada sea bass fish fillet dalam freezer. Kita bantai sahajork. Daripada 'Penne Chicken' jadi 'Baked Fish Pasta' pula. Sama aje, konsep dia ialah gantikan dada ayam dengan filet ikan siakap (itu sahaja ikan yang murah sikit dekat Galway ni, beli yang frozen je pun).

Jadi tanpa membuang masa, 

sukatan untuk 10 orang (saiz perut perempuan) makan :

Bahan-bahan:

500 g pasta

500 ml fresh cream

200 ml fresh milk

4 keping fish fillets

Butter

1 biji Bawang besar

4 ulas Bawang putih

*Beberapa batang celery sticks

*1 batang carrot besar

*Button mushrooms

*Cili api

Ground black pepper

Garam

Grated cheese

Cara-cara:

1. Rebus pasta, ikut instruction dekat packaging tu. Kalau aku biasanya masak air sampai mendidih, masukkan garam dalam sesudu kecik, masukkan pasta, lepas tu masukkan butter dalam sesudu besar. Tunggu la dalam 10-12 minit, kacau-kacau sikit kadang-kadang takut dia melekat dekat periuk. Agak-agak dah masak tu, angkat dan tos.

2. Disebabkan aku suka multitasking, sementara nak tunggu pasta tu masak, lumur fish fillet dengan garam dan sedikit ground black pepper, bakar dalam suhu 180 darjah Celcius sampai agak-agak masak. Aku punya makan 20 minit la jugak. Takpe dia duduk diam-diam je dalam oven tu, so kita boleh buat benda lain. Jangan sampai terlupa pulak, nanti dapat ikan berperisa arang. Kalau nak goreng ikan pun boleh juga, suka hati lah.

3. Sementara tu boleh multitasking lagi. Kita buat sos krim dia pulak. Guna periuk yang besar sikit, nanti senang kita nak campur pasta dia dalam tu. Takpe nanti mak jemah cerita. Dalam periuk cairkan dua sudu buter, then tumis bawang besar dan bawang putih yang telah dicincang. 

4. Bila dah layu bawangnya, masukkan dua sudu besar tepung gandum. Ini optional. Aku tak tau apa rasional dia tapi orang lain buat macam tu so kita ikut sahajork. Kalau tak letak tepung pun okay je rasanya. Kacau kacau kacau sampai tepung tu masak, jaga-jaga sikit nanti dia lekat kat periuk dan hangit, disaster. 

5. Masukkan pula fresh cream. Dia memang berketul mula-mula tapi kacau je buat relax je nanti dia okay insyaAllah. Kemudian masukkan fresh milk, kasi dia cair sikit, tak adalah masa makan tu rasa berlemak sangat macam nak kena sakit jantung hehe.

6. Masukkan sayur-sayur (yang bertanda *). Sebenarnya sayur apa-apa pun boleh. Apa-apa yang ada dalam peti ais tu campak sahaja. Brokoli, bayam, boleh. Kailan ke bak choy ke tak sure pulak, macam pelik je. Cili api tu optional, tapi disebabkan hidupku tak bermakna tanpamu di sisiku duhai cili api maka aku letaklah bagi kick sikit. Lidah Melayu kata ko. :D

7. Perasakan dengan garam dan ground black pepper. Kacau-kacau lah kuah tu sampai masak.

8. Last sekali, masukkan segenggam grated cheese, atau cheese yang orang tabur atas pizza tu. Bukan philadelphia, itu orang buat cheese cake. -.- Grated cheese ni bagi effect pasta kau bertali-tali gittew. Ahhh rindu Pizza Hut! Kacau-kacau lagi agak-agak cheese tu dah larut, matikan api (kalau dapur kau dapur gas lah, mat saleh punya dapur electric u'olls).

9. At this stage boleh masukkan pasta yang dah direbus tadi. Alamak tak muat periuk? Periuk kecik sangat? Jangan risau beb. Benda boleh setel. Campur je pasta dan kuah tadi dalam mana-manalah bekas yang muat. Hehe. Kacau-kacau sehingga sebati dan setiap individu pasta diselaputi sos. Gittew. Ingat lagi tak ikan panggang tadi? Potong ikan dalam bite size, gaulkan sekali dengan pasta dan sos. Aku cadangkan masuk ikan last sekali sebab ikan ni mudah hancur. Tuang semua 'adunan' ke dalam loyang atau baking dish, tabur balance grated cheese tadi. Letaklah banyak mana pun, waima nak buat gunung cheese pun dipersilakan. Takde hal bro.

10. Bakar dalam oven suhu 180 darjah Celcius, lebih kurang 5-10 minit, atau sampai cheese atas tu cair dan garing. Boleh lah diangkat dan dihidang, jangan lupa telan air liur. Mehehe.

Senang aje kan? Yang tak reti masak pun insyaAllah boleh masak dengan jayanya. Resepi ni aku bantai-bantai, campak-campak, agak-agak je. Modify sini sikit sana sikit. Kita guna je apa yang ada kat rumah. Aku memang pakar bab ganti-ganti barang ni. Kalau takde butter boleh ganti dengan vegetable oil. Kalau taknak ikan, nak guna chicken breast tadi, masukkan chuncks of chicken breast (tak bakar dulu pun tak apa) lepas step 5. Kalau nak tau, aku buat carbonara pun macam ni jugak caranya, sebijik. Makanan mat saleh ni ulang-ulang benda yang sama je sebenarnya hehe.

Maaflah rupa tak semenggah mana. Dah habis separuh housemates makan baru sempat tangkap gambar. Kesian anak-anakku kelaparan semuanya. Hehe.

Selamat mencuba. Kalau dah cuba bagi tahu cheq. Nak bagi rasa pun dialu-alukan. Hewhew. Adios!

now playing Mecca2Medina ft Raihan - Do You Know Him

OLJ Part 1 : Dublin - Munich - Salzburg

OLJ (Our Little Jaulah) is actually a series of travel note I jotted down in my little pink travel book during our winter trip to Austria and Germany, transferred into blog posts form.

Day 1  (Actually rambled on 18 December 2013)

now playing : Opick - Dealova

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

What can i say? It was quite a day today. Now it is exactly 08:45pm and everybody already drifted into the dreamland. Except for me. Oh actually I had a (power) nap before so that I can stay awake to plan the Salzburg trip for these few days coming.

My so called trip planning on the bed *wink*. Each bed has personal lamp, it comes very handy in a shared room so you don't have to kacau orang lain tido with a bright room light.

 Oh, silly me. Aneh Apijah, introduction mana? Tak bagi salam terus masuk rumah orang tumpang toilet. *metafora tetibe*

As the title suggests, this is our little jaulah. (bagi nama jaulah la, islamic sikit ecchehh).

As early as it an gets, our day starts at 01:15am when we took a cab to the New Galway Coach Station, hopped onto a shuttle bus to the Dublin International Airport, meet up with Afiqah from Cork, checked in, bumped into the Galway boys (Hazel boys and the gang) who turned out having a same flight with us four (Nisa, Nadiah, Afiqah, and I) to Munich, Germany; yada yada, early spicy pasta breakfast yada yada off we got onto the plane. It was around 07:15am when the flight took off. So we pretty much didn't really sleep that night (or morning?).

I think I did a pretty well job on packing my cabin (and only) luggage. Kali ni dah tak payah minta tolong Ayah via Skype dah. Imma grown up now! :P

Pengalaman solat Subuh and watching sunrise afterwards. Subhanallah. :')

Good morning Munich. Alhamdulillah selalu dapat seat tepi tingkap. Boleh berangan lari-lari atas Negara Awan selalu. Doraemon sangat. ;)

And of course, adventure usually starts as soon as possible. Eewah, adventure ke? But seriously, macam-macam dugaan datang. Nasib baik kami chillax aje hehe. I will tell more by the end of this entry okayss lovelies? =)

We arrived a Munich Airport around twenty to eleven then immediately bought Germay Railway Passes which cost us each 196 Euros and the pass can be used "unlimited-ly" for six days in one month. Valid in all over Germany and neighboring countries, as for our case, Salzburg, Austria.....which marks our first vacation-adventure location ehehs.

Waiting for our Munich-Salzburg train and I'm holding my phone (gotta appreciate the free airport wifi while it is still available!).

Loving our coach. Very Harry-Potter-Hogwarts-Express-like.

By 04:30pm dan dan masuk Maghrib we safely arrived at the hostel and checked in, then we prepared to solat, bersihkan diri and all, terus terbongkang semua. Haha. Penat semuanya. Makan pun tak proper, we relied on bananas and breads and chocolates to alas perut, and oh, spicy pasta untuk early breakfast tadi pun ada lagi, survive sampai the next day nampak gayanya insyaAllah. :)

A few highlights of the day:

1) There were two boys in the flight, the pissed everybody off, like literally every person in the plane, from the stewards to the other passengers. It was a total discomfort-ness throughout the journey; they were so loud, like they were high or drunk or something, even little children behaved better. *sigh*

Those boys were too noisy we couldn't sleep we posed for the camera instead. Heheh.

2) Our first experience on the regional train was kinda shitty. Haha. Nobody spoke English to top it off; so we ended up confused and depressed, as all the announcements were not in English, we don't know whether it was our station next or whatsoever and we cannot ask people around. There were a few kind people however, who tried their best to use their minimum knowledge in the language, which did help us a lot, but there were also quite a number of people who doesn't even try to help - it was annoying.

Despite the hardship, we were blessed with a wonderful view Alhamdulillah. My very first time seeing snowy alps! (They should clean the window I guess.)

3) In Salzburg (or as they pronounced it "Zalzburgg" qolqolah sikit Q tu) nobody speaks English except the ones in the information center. The people were really nice though, despite the language barrier, which is something good, kan? :)

Those are actually cables for trams in Salzburg. Kinda cool, huh? :)

4) Dankee (I'm not sure with the spellings but it means "Thanks") 

Ausgang = Exit

Eingang = Entrance

Basic local store shopping knowledge hehe.

5) The nice receptionist boy named Christopher (which apparently is also the barista) accidentally gave us a key to an all boys room. We went into the room (we booked a shared female dorm in a hostel) trusting it was ours, providing it has four empty-untouched beds in the room (and there was no one inside). Our first thought was "The room smells like guys". And we found a few 'evidences' that we ummmmmm pretty sure belong to a man, and oooopps, we better wait outside. Our 'actual' room was actually two doors away. Wrong key, wrong room number. Haha! What an experience. -.-'

Zotter Trinkschokolade. If you've seen my video on Instagram, these are the choice of chocolate bar flavors available for my hot chocolate. Christopher was being very nice to patiently translate 'em all to us.

6) Afiqah woke me up from a nap, just to hear me calling her "Uswah". Hahaha. Yup. You better not seeing me when I'm mamai. Budak paling teruk mamai, yang inilah, Hanis Hafizah yang inilah. Hahaha.

7) Nisa slept after Isya' and woke up after a few hours; asked about the time. It was 08.30pm. And she asked again, "Kita nak keluar pukul berapa?". Everybody has blurred face on. Then Nisa came to her sense, "Jap, 08:30 pagi ke malam ni?!" Hahaha. Yup, 08:30 in the morning is still dark back in Galway.

8) There are LOADS of choice of mineral water in store and for such a cheap price, but of course, nobody cares to help this not so little tourist understanding what written on the bottle so I ended up buying sparkling mineral water. The only good news is, it costs only 22 cents! Woohoo! Yup you read me right. ;)

Our tired faces. Waiting for our last transport of the day to the hostel. Cool gila ada bench tempat sandar beg ni, at least you don't have to stand hurting your shoulder carrying your bag after a looooong day! Genius siapa cipta benda ni.

That's it for now. What a day right? Hahaha. Should go to sleep now. A long and great day (hopefully) awaits tomorrow. Wassalam. 

now playing Radiohead - Creep

Eid Mubarak From Galway!

Alhamdulillah. It's Eid again. My third raya in Galway, my second Eid Al-Adha. But didn't manage to perform solat sunat hari raya with the others this time round, because I have a morning class. Raya dalam lecture theater pon boleh. Haha T_____T 

One of the pictures is from the last night's event; Galway Bertakbir (pandai-pandai bagi nama hahah). And the other one is a (not-so) quick selfie I managed to snap after class today. I knew this Miss Selfridge' s floral dress will come in handy when I 'ran out' of baju kurung. Lol. So I just style it with a dark blue cardigan I got from Penneys, a turquoise pasmina, a Dorothy Perkin's headband for a 'princess-ey' effect (muehehe), my lovable pair of studded ankle boots and voilà, lari pergi class. Haha! Mood nak cantik-cantik masa hari raya mesti kena ada. Hiks.

Ps: Class ends at 6pm. And not a single raya food is eaten (yet) today. Bertabahlah duhai Anis Apizah!